Entry Three

We are more than half way through the year! At the beginning of 2022, my partner and I decided to intentionally shift our lives from a place of survival, to a world of flourishing. So far, this year has taught me that this change does not happen overnight. But once you declare something, it is your duty to show up and choose to begin again. The first half of this year showed me where I was still playing small, and where I was continuing to chase after crumbs, when I could be creating an entirely new recipe. 

The entry below was originally written on February, 19th 2022. I feel powerful when I can articulate the scripts that are on repeat in my mind. Bringing them to the forefront is courageous, and keeps me accountable. I hope you enjoy it!

February 19th, 2022:

It’s wild to think about all of the labels I have found a place of belonging in. Labels where I lived and created entire lives, without realizing how airtight I was keeping my potential locked away. I felt at home when I chased after the bare minimum. I was fully settled inside the identity as someone who was not desirable. In agreement with being broke. Signed a contract with struggle. I never thought that I could belong in a place that had ease. A place where I trusted myself, while simultaneously allowing others to support me. I didn’t believe that I could belong in a world that applauded who I was. But that's the problem isn’t it? We spend so much time thinking we don’t fit into the world we perceive other people to be effortlessly living in, that we don’t see how we are neglecting our inner world. Our innate beauty. We fail to see the love that surrounds us that is mirroring the glow of our spirit. 

What if I chose to belong there, too? What world do you wish to belong to, and what lens would you need to put down in order to see that it is possible?

Today, I felt at home in my body. I went to hot yoga (my devotion) and could feel the power of every limb. I felt supported in every movement, and present with every breath. It’s funny how even after years of criticizing every inch of my body, she doesn’t hold anything against me. Have you ever showed that much faith in yourself? 

My body certainly remembers it all, but it still wakes me up everyday and allows me to choose again. I’d like to belong to myself in the same way. To be at peace with things my former self chose that I wouldn’t choose today, but to remember that every moment is a new chance. I’m not stuck with me, I get to be with me everyday. An overlooked miracle. 

I hope this dialogue about belonging is provoking, and that you do not silence what is coming up for you. Don’t forget that we’re in this together! Share your reflections on my hotline below. 

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In the meantime, don’t be afraid to pause. Repeat after me, time is on my side.